Potential trigger warning with respects to accounts of abuse, mental health and alcohol abuse. Please treat yourself kindly and proceed cautiously. I've always been told that my vulnerability makes me strong, but sometimes I've been told to play my cards closer to my chest. Don't give them something to talk about, or hold against you. … Continue reading You are not alone
To know something deeply, but to hear it and understand it as if for the first time. Thanks to Andre Acimen's Call Me By Your Name, I found the perception I was lacking around the destructive act of guarding my heart. One must feel pain so that one may recognize joy.
Only flesh and bonesLiving in a dreamI get so coldLike you wouldn’t believe The world is heavyWith your staresI choke down tearsSay I don’t careMy body is my homeBut it’s full of locked doorsDon’t know who I amTill I crumble to the floor I put on a smileLike I put on lipstickConvince me I’m fineCollapsing … Continue reading Until I Find The Light
Can they smell the stench of rot coming from inside? Or hear the words attacking my brain, too evil to confide? Disintegrating bone and flesh are the fabrics of my soul, But on the outside looking in, they would never know. My arms are tired, my fire out, I’m too exhausted to keep going. Yet … Continue reading The Decay of Me