“I wouldn’t be able to do what I am doing nor would I be half the woman I am today without your constant encouragement, love, jokes, and memories. You are the muses who have made me fall in love with humanity. You are the art pieces of the universe that I will consistently nurture and love until my last breath.”
There’s something about numbers. I think we all must do it. We all must look at the clock at the same time every day and wonder, why? We all must have a number that we always choose, even if we don’t know why. Over time we begin to call this our “lucky
number.” The earliest memory I have of 23 was that it was David Beckham’s jersey number and I chose it when I had to choose my soccer jersey. After that, it was a part of me. Even as that jersey disappeared, it continuously showed up in my life. I always wondered, why is 23 my lucky number?
My favorite singer died in the 23rd year of her life only 1 month, March 30th, before I was born, April 30th. My entire life, I have convinced myself that this means something. Now, on the 23rd year of this world lacking her gorgeous soul, things are starting to come together. I was born at 6:54 AM on April 30th. I know this only because my dad calls me or wakes me up every year at this exact time to tell me happy birthday. I was in the middle of writing this sentence and I was going to say, I am now 8 hours into my 23rd year of life…and when I looked at the clock it was exactly 7:54 PM.
Kid you not, look.
Anyway, I am exactly 8 hours into my 23rd year life and I am living in Berlin, Germany in apartment 23 on a quaint street surrounded with cherry blossom trees. I can’t help but feel some sense of right. This was all meant to be all along, and I never even saw it coming. The beautiful thing about life is that my passion for culture was born sometime between 20-23 years ago when I first discovered Selena, my favorite singer. Now, 23 years later, I am living a life that was likely directly related by my love for her.
It is one of those things you can’t help but marvel at. Maybe it seems far-fetched, but if I feel there is some importance or something else going on here, that’s what I’m trusting. Everything was leading me to this moment. The idea of that makes me feel so grounded in my mission and my current path. It validates my idea that my task is to spread kindness and love. Somehow, I am needed and wanted exactly where I am, and this was pre-destined for nearly my entire life.
Berlin has stolen my heart. It is eclectic. It is free. It is warm. It is alive. It is a city that I resonate with. In the mere month that I have been here, I have met such inspiring and like-minded individuals. I have to give an appreciation post for all my loved ones, new and old. I received two surprise flower arrangements today and an endless number of messages and calls. I have never felt so blessed in my life to have the people I have. I am so extremely grateful to have met the people I have met. I am so extremely grateful to be forging friendships all over the world and to be making some kind of positive difference. To my closest friends, to my family, and to all those who have blessed my 23 years of existence by caring, I thank you wholeheartedly.
I wouldn’t be able to do what I am doing nor would I be half the woman I am today without your constant encouragement, love, jokes, and memories. You are the muses who have made me fall in love with humanity. You are the art pieces of the universe that I will consistently nurture and love until my last breath. You are my inspiration to keep on smiling, to keep on finding light and to keep on loving in even the slightest ways. Today, on a day that is supposed to celebrate my life, all I can think about is how I am personally celebrating all of you. My sincerest gratitude to you all for giving me the opportunity to love you all and for returning that love.
I have the utmost faith in the universe, in humanity, in good, and in kindness. My wish is that I can be successful in making sure you know you are loved exactly the way you are. My wish is that I can be successful in bringing peace to troubled hearts. My wish is that I can be successful in encouraging and empowering you to find home in yourself, to find strength within and to find happiness at your fingertips. Thank you for allowing me to be a part of your life and here is to the next 23 years of life, wherever I am destined to be.